Home

Everything is catching up with me
I awake
To find I'm not at all where I
Should be
And it feels
I'm getting to the end
And it's hard
To figure out
What's real and what's pretend

To break from what we're tied to
God knows how much I've tried to
And I am still inside you
And I am still inside you

I escape
Every now and then
And to think
I find myself
Back here again
And again, and again

Now you should know how I was
Until you came along
I return
To the only place I've ever felt
That I belong

To break from what we're tied to
God knows how much I've tried to
And I am still inside you
And I am still inside you.


That from Nine Inch Nails' song 'Home' which is summing up pretty much how I'm feeling at the moment. Today is two months until I go back to New Zealand. Mixed feelings. On one hand I'm excited as fuck. Seeing Frank again is the big thing. We talked for about 5 hours on Friday - he was on 2C-T-7 in the Cue Club. So we're good friends again after a few months of losing contact, and we're going to abuse several substances upon my return. I'll have just had block exams, so I'll be about ready for it. I want to see him again, and reunite etc, but I really DON'T want to do last year again, which was pretty much the pits. So yeah ... I'm not exactly sure how it's going to pan out. Apologies for the lack of [good] writing lately. School is getting to me somewhat. Still, I have all of tomorrow off to:
1) Study. Study. Study.
2) Do Japanese homework
3) Eat & go on MSN [most likely course of action]
4) Straighten hair.